The long and the Short of it

Oh lord it’s been a hot minute y’all! So much has changed in 4 years including 2 more babies, a big move, 3 jobs later and here we are! A few weeks ago, I was talking to my husband and I said to him, “I think I want to start up my mommy blog again.” Other than be taken aback since its been literally FOUR years, he was all for it. It was all further confirmed when  I was talking to one of my oldest friends this weekend, we were talking about “what do you do for you?”. I started to think about it and thought well, I don’t have any real hobbies except baking and napping lol. My life is mostly working and being a mom and wife. And I thought, I really enjoyed writing this blog and helping other mom’s through humor, mutual respect and humility (and maybe a little wine).

A quick update on our life! We are currently the proud parents of three beautiful boys. Currently I’ve realized anything in our house can be made into a sword, dinosaurs are the bees knees, “don’t touch that” is a phrase that really holds no merit, and the louder the better. I am still a clinical Physical Therapist working full time but hoping to hit that jackpot big any day now ;). My husband is just as wonderful as he was 4 years ago and has taken up the hobby of gourmet cooking and gardening! A hobby my belly and I can really get behind.

It’s funny now I look back at these old posts and think dang this lady used to make her own sensory bottles and bags. This mom would say heck, I’m sure I can find that joker on amazon and prime it now.  On the flip side, that same mom was terrified of going to the commissary in fears that my baby Mason would cry but now I tote all three boogers with me everywhere and they know the harsh reality of a mom’s glare and threats in the Kroger grocery aisle. So much has changed from baby #1 to baby #3 its unbelievable.

So much has changed and four years later I’ve decided that no mom is perfect. I’m almost positive those Instagram mom’s at some point have fed their kids some sort of processed cereal and their kids have picked their boogers and survived to tell the tale. I am now a mom that believes in herself and understand that I will make mistakes daily but also will apologize for it. I have learned it’s okay to accept help and some of the best mommy’s don’t do it alone. I have learned that my husband, as my best friend and partner, is just as capable of parenting and I need to delegate because a tired mommy is a help to no one. Even though I feel it daily, I try to shake the guilt of being a working mom. Its hard coming home to babies you feel you haven’t seen all day but conversely so tired from working all day you feel that you can’t give your whole self to them to start. I can only hope one day they admire how hard their mommy worked trying to make people feel better.

I’m so glad to be back and though many things have changed since my last post four frickin’ years ago, I still believe that mommy’s need bottles too….especially the ones filled with red and white 😉



Homemade Sensory Bags and Sensory Bottles

Sorry guys it’s been awhile since my last post. Work, baby, and family have recently taken the entirety of my attention! Most recently things have actually settled down and I’ve had some free time at night to browse (my obsession) Pinterest. I have come across several ideas for making your own sensory toys and I thought I’d give it a go. I sometimes look back and laugh at all the really fun and interesting things that I have pinned and think….there is no way I’m ever going to have time to put together a Mickey Mouse fondant cake or get my hair to look like a Victoria’s Secret model. But recently I did have about 30 minutes to spare and made some really cool sensory bottles for Mason. With the help of my dear, wonderful husband it literally took 30 minutes to put together 4 sensory bags and 3 sensory bottles. And the best part was that it cost about 15 bucks! You might even have a lot of these items just laying around! Here is the shopping list gals and pals:

3 plastic bottles
3 heavy duty freezer bags
Duct tape (they have some really fun designs now!)
Popcorn Kernals or quinoa or rice!
Fuzzy colorful craft balls
Big bottle of baby oil
Food coloring
2 big bottles of CHEAP clear hair gel (ya know that stuff that will turn your hair to rock)
Glitter and/or confetti
Anything colorful to put in sensory bags that is not too sharp that would puncture the bag and possibly educational!
Super Glue

Sensory Bottles


Make sure your bottles are completely clean and dry!

For a glitter bottle: Put glitter and confetti in bottle. Add water to top of bottle. Put a little super glue on inside cap of bottle and screw on cap very tightly! Viola! Easy Peasy!
For sound bottle: Place popcorn/rice/quinoa in bottle and add color fuzz balls and toothpicks! Dab Superglue on inside of cap prior to screwing on cap! Babies like to make lots of noise so test your bottle out while you’re making them! Preferably not at nap time haha!
-To make colored rice: Place rice in shallow pan add 1 tsp of vinegar and several drops of food dye. Mix rice mixture and lay rice flat on pan. Allow to air dry for about 30 minutes.

Sensory Bags

Lava oil bags:
Pour 1/2 of baby oil bottle contents into zip lock bag. Add several 5-10 drops of food dye in bag. Slowly add water to bag. As you add water mix contents with your hand on outside of bag. Once water “blobs” are desired size stop adding water. It does not take a lot of water so be careful!

Gel “Squish” bags: Add entire contents of gel container in zip lock bag. Add colorful objects like animals, number blocks, and alphabet beads to bag. Zip up bag and you’re done!

I would HIGHLY suggest reinforcing all side of your sensory bags with duct tape. The most difficult part of this whole thing was duct taping the bags. This is where my lovely husband stepped in. Also a side note on the oil bags. Get a really heavy duty zip lock bag. The oil seeped OUT of my porous bags and got all over my comforter so I ended up throwing those out.
As always always supervise your children when playing with sensory bags/bottles and any toy. Mason has a tendency to put the bags in his mouth and I have to stop him. But mostly he likes to sit on the bags and shake the bottles! Have fun ya’ll!!


A Working Mother’s Guilt

imageI had to return to work just 8 weeks after Mason was born. I had major anxiety, as I’m sure most mothers do, when having to return to work. For our family it was not a question whether I could or could not return to work. I have mountains of student loans to pay off and we are trying to save up to buy a house. Not going back to work was not a viable option for us.

Prior to going back to work I thought, “How in the world am I going to manage getting to work on time with a baby!”. I was already exhausted from multiple night feedings and I hadn’t even returned to work yet. Mason was still getting up at least twice a night at two months old, how was I going to breastfeed, get ready and be presentable, and be out the door in time?!

However, in between my pangs of guilt I also felt excitement to return to work. To return to adult conversation and having some freedom outside of our home by myself. To return to doing something that I loved and something that I felt was a part of me and defined me. I am a physical therapist. It took me 7 years to get my doctorate and I am not only proud of what I do but I love what I do. I have a powerful bond with my patients as I am there when they are at their lowest and I am part of their journey as they find their footing in the world again.

I also work because I feel that being a full time mom makes me a better mom. Every minute with Mason I cherish. I can not afford to take for granted a single minute that I have with my little one. He is only this little once. He will only want to be held and loved on for so long. From the minute he wakes up, to the time I put him down I have to soak up every laugh and every gummy smile.

Being at work for me is my “me time”. On the drive from one patient to the next, I find time to belt out to my favorite Britney song or call my best friend. Or just contemplate in perfect silence along the foothills of Kentucky on what activities our family will get into this weekend. At work, I get to have adult conversations and get a break from having one sided conversations with Dora, Peppa, and Mickey.

Being a working mom is a constant juggle. While I’m at work, I am constantly thinking of home and of Mason and if he took his nap today and how he is doing with teething today. But while I’m at home, I constantly wondering if my patients are okay, what doctors I need to call in the morning, and what paperwork I need to get done tonight. It’s a constant juggle between calling and taking care of patients with feeding Mason those peas he hates and entertaining my little monkey until bedtime. My life consists of not only having to juggle baby but juggle my married life. I am not only a mother but a wife as well. I never understood when people said there wasn’t enough time in the day until I was a working mother and wife. There will never be enough time in the day to get everything done but as long as my son and husband are happy and healthy, the rest will fall into place.

Do I still worry that Mason’s teachers or babysitter will know him better than I do? Yes I do, but even though my time with my sweet boy is limited I want it to be meaningful. I want to be an example for my son that hard work pays off. I want to show him that it can pay off if you are dedicated to your studies and education. That it is possible to find a career that will better your life and, if you’re lucky, impact someone else’s life.

Do I think that I would be happier if I didn’t work? No. Less hectic and crazy…yes. My patients and my career are a part of who I am as well as being a mother and wife. I hope that an older Mason will look back on the days when he was young and think back on his young(er) working mother who took care of the him and the household and think, “My mom really did it all and loved me all the same.” But until then I’ll continue to kiss and sing him goodnight and hug him every morning. I will thank God every day that I am a working mother who was blessed with a precious baby boy.




Hidden Benefits of Being a Parent


You’ll have those days when you are exhausted, disheveled, and covered in God knows what and you think, “Man, If I didn’t have kids I could just lay around, curse like a sailor and drink like one too” But there are some hidden perks of being a parent.

1) All ABOARD! Its summer time and it’s travel season. Flights are booked and every available seat on the plane is taken. Getting through security might have been a nightmare with your 10 bags, the removal of everyone’s shoes, and the dirty looks you got because your child is wailing and you are taking entirely too long to get through TSA. Don’t fret my dear. Some airlines are now letting families with small children to board first. Those that I know who allow this are Southwest, Delta, jetBLue, Alaska, and Virgin. And for you pond hoppers, some international airlines such as Emirates, British, Singapore, and Virgin Atlantic will provide child entertainment, meals, formula, and diapers! And to be honest, letting us families board first is a great idea because I know that my son would be trying to grab everyone’s hair all the way from the first class to coach.

2) Strollers have the right away
Shopping with a baby can be a challenge. You have to time everything just right with the last feeding, nap time, diaper change, etc. In those crowded malls it can be difficult to negotiate between all the kiosks, shoppers, and people trying to get you to buy some Dead Sea lotion and salt scrub for your hands. Thank god you have your giant stroller travel system with car seat carrier and under basket to lead the way. Can’t find a good route through the crowds? I say make your own…

3) I’m sorry to leave so early but the baby…..
Okay we have all been there. We are stuck talking to what’s her name at Kroger and can not find an appropriate escape route. Thank god for that darling baby that HAS to get home for a nap…or something….

4) Complete Strangers are genuinely nice to you
You’re struggling with that non-handicap door at the mall with your giant stroller, shopping bags, and all the while you’re juggling your iphone and venti latte. I want to say Thank you to all the complete strangers who stop and hold the doors open while my son is having an apocalyptic melt down because I can’t find Sophie the Giraffe in time.

5) Baby Weight
Okay, so I have been doing really good lately with the diet and working out thing….if you don’t count tonight’s bowl of butter pecan. But somehow with working full time, housework, and taking care of Mason (and blogging my Husband would like to add). I have been using my last reserve energy to drag my butt to the gym. I have lost most of my baby weight but there is still a few pounds to shed and you know what? Most everyone is really supportive and understanding of my post baby weight plight. I don’t know how long this will last but everyone seems super supportive and says things like “you just had a baby your body needs time to rest and recover!” I hate to tell them but Mason is 6 months old and that bowl of butter pecan wasn’t really necessary….or was it??…..

6) Time Management
Before my son was born I would seriously take almost all day to clean and do laundry. Not because I was slow or lazy but I just wasn’t in a hurry. Nowadays nap time is crucial. In a one hour nap time, I can shower, get ready, vacuum, do laundry, and tidy up all the baby toys that have been thrown around the house. After baby you learn to prioritize what has to be done right now and what can wait. There are a few things on the list that are always a priority….like showering…and having a cup of coffee…coffee is definitely on the priority list….

7) You’re a Hero without the cape
I have those days when I am completely and utterly worn out from work. I get home and there he is with his gummy smile and kicking his legs so feverishly because he is excited to see me. Right now I am his whole world and he is mine. There are days that I wonder what life would be like if we didn’t have our precious boy. You think about all the activities and events you are missing out on. But in reality, we would be missing out on so much more without him. I am blessed with giggles and smiles in the morning and hugs and snuggles at night. So the last not so hidden benefit of being a parent is that you are someone’s super hero. So soak up the crocodile tears and kiss the boo boos momma because you are super momma (or daddy!) to a very lucky little baby. You are able to juggle play dates, work full-time, keep the house up, make dinner, tell a bedtime story, and banish all the bed bugs and monsters before passing out and doing it again the next day. You go mom and dad…its all a bit exhausting but that gummy grin and sweet baby laugh makes it all worth it.



Finding Swimsuit Serenity

We are summer people. My husband is an avid surfer and I am his beach bunny. My husband knew how to swim before he could even walk. When we found out Mason’s due date we were excited because that would mean that Mason would be getting to the age he could splash around in the water with us and introduce him the beach lifestyle.

One of the first things I did this summer was go out and buy Mason a cute little lobster swimming trunks and all the beach/pool baby paraphernalia I could get my hands on. The next step was a bit trickier. What in God’s name was I going to wear? I seriously have about 15 bathing suits in my closet stuffed into an old suitcase. I think all but one are two pieces. I tried them on eagerly at the start of the summer and one word came to mind….WHOMP WHOMP. I am nearly down to my pre-baby weight but when I had tried on those little bikinis it looked like a sad rendition of a Picasso-like version of what things used to be. Most of my baby weight is gone but things weren’t were they used to be. Everything looks just a little sad to put it mildly.

So my bathing suit shopping game plan was to go to the largest department store in our area and scour the racks. Since we are currently living in western KY my bathing suit selection is limited but I thought Dilliard’s might be the best place to start. I pinterested and online browsed various stores ahead of time but had a hard time balancing being a mom but also not wanting to be a frump poolside. Was I going to have to prepare myself to wearing the skirted bottom, floral printed, tankini wearing mom suit? Bathing suit shopping pre-baby was bad enough I didn’t know if a compromise was even possible.

So Mason and I arrived at Dilliard’s at the optimal time between his last feeding and morning nap so I could have maximum time in bathing suit hell. The sales lady was awesome and helped me pick up seriously 40 different bathing suits. I had monokinis, one pieces, two pieces, tankinis you name it. I had bathing suits draped all over Mason’s stroller as I mentally prepared myself for the actual trying on of the dreaded swimsuits.

The actual trying on process was dreadful. My “milk duds” were out of control and I had a hard time concealing my C-section scar and new mom pooch. During the process I would peep with one eye open and assess the damage. Crying was almost in short order and I was quickly running out of options. I thought the monokinis would be a good compromise but it was quite humorous. I had “baggage” coming out of all those damn openings.

A little knock from the sales lady came as my unknown salvation. She had a new style that just arrived. She told me that the new style this season ladies is high waisted bikinis. Celebs of all sizes including Taylor Swift, Serena Williams, and Kim Kardashian were sporting this retro style. The sales lady said that she had just received the shipment and most of the available bottoms were already being reserved for customers. It was love at first sight with its ruching and touch of sexy sass. To complete the look the sales lady brought me a under-wired triangle top that brought the girls up up up! Things were sucked in, covered up and lifted up!

I recommend this style to all you new moms out there. The suit style is complimentary on various body types, conceals those problem areas in a post-baby body, but has a trendy, sexy edge to it. In conclusion, I am a 20-something new mom and I’m not ready to turn in my bikini just yet. Don’t be afraid ladies. There is a swim suit for you out there that will compliment your new body. This body is not the body you used to have but it is beautiful. It made a beautiful little human and has the battle scars to show it. So grab a Marg and meet me at the beach you hot momma because you deserve it!



Bikini Bottoms by Gianni Binni

Bilini Top by Kenneth Cole


Sleep is for amateurs

imageHello tired momma and papa. I know that you have already searched pinterest, google, and the entire how-to infant section at Barnes and Nobles and still your baby is NOT SLEEPING. I’ve blocked out most of those early sleepless days but I do remember being so tired that when I actually did laid down to sleep my whole body would convulse because my body was in sleep deprivation mode. You don’t think that you can do it for one more day but you do and then do it the next day, and the day after that. I remember my friends and family telling, “It’ll only last the first four or five months and he’ll start sleeping better!” FOUR OR FIVE MONTHS?! I thought to myself there is no way I can physically make it that long. I swear we tried everything from Babywise to routines to gripe water to sound machines in every possible combination possible.

Here are some things that helped us get Mason to sleep through the night. Every baby is different and these tips might not help but hey its definitely worth a shot.

1) Routine! We do the same thing night after night. Yes our social life is limited to only those activities that fall before 5pm but sweet sweet slumber is worth it. My husband and I think that establishing a bedtime routine was the number one thing that helped Mason sleep through the night. Our schedule is as follows: Bottle around 3-4, Bath at 5pm, quiet play/reading with mom and dad, and then down to bed when he started showing tired signs around 6-7 pm. We change him into a nighttime diaper and dream feed him around 8-9pm and then STRAIGHT TO BED. He wakes up around 6-630 am! Woohoo! I hate to tell you but the first couple of nights that your little one sleeps through you probably will not. You have trained your body to wake up every few hours and its a hard habit to break. I also checked incessantly every couple hours those first couple of night to make sure Mason was still breathing because I could not believe that we had actually made it!

2) Late to bed does not necessarily mean late to rise! Yes you heard right. Making your infant stay up during the day when they are tired is a certain recipe for an overly tired cranky baby. And an overly tired baby is a terror. Babies who are overly tired have a hard time self-soothing and are usually so grumpy that have a hard time going down to nap or sleep.The days that Mason gets good naps during the day he usually has a great nights sleep. Also, he tends to be a happier baby with lots of coos and laughs to go along with that. Now with that said, I do try to limit his afternoon nap and not let it go after 4 or 5 so we can get him to bed at a reasonable hour.

3) Establishing day and night rhythms
Oh how cozy it is all warm and dark in the womb until suddenly and violently your baby has to come out to the real world! Mason had major day/night reversal issues for the first week or so after he was born. If you baby kicks a lot at night there is a good chance that is his awake period and that will continue out of the womb as well. During the day we would open all the blinds and would try to engage mason with stimulating activity and talking. At night we would close the blinds and dim the lights and started our bedtime routine. In less than a week the issue corrected itself!

4) Cry it out?
Beware! Controversial topic ahead! There are tons of books on sleeping and getting your baby to sleep through the night and various techniques on how to get your baby to sleep through the night. I’ll admit it I bought the babywise book. At four weeks I tried to get Mason on the strict babywise schedule of Eat, Activity, Sleep, You time and it be blunt it didn’t work for me at all. I might get the first couple of hours on schedule and then the whole day would be off and then the next and so on. I also tried the cry it out method but I was right there along with him definitely crying it out. However what did work for me as stated before was a bedtime routine and once he was around 3 months when I knew for certain he was tired I would lay him down. If he cried I started letting him cry for about 5 min then go in and shoosh him and pat/pick him up if his screams sounded like they originated from the bowels of hell. Then lay him back down and keep going in at 5,10,15 min increments. As he got older I increased the time slowly. This method for me seemed to work however an infant below 2-3 months of age is not neurologically capable of self-soothing and the cry it out method will not work.

5) Sound machine
We were skeptical at first but many friends told us that they thought that the white noise of the sound machine helped get their little ones asleep. At this point I would have spent a small fortune to get him to sleep. I broke down at Wal-mart one day and said what the hell. And don’t you know the damn thing worked. Now it didn’t get him to sleep through the night but it was helping him to sleep and stay asleep longer. Amen to that!

6) Know your babies sleep signs!
This is key. Like I said before an overly tired baby and if your baby is already crying its too late. When Mason is tired he usually likes to rub his head on things, rub his eyes, yawn, his arm and legs movements tend to get jerkier, and he tends to become less engaged in activity. There are some good videos on YouTube on sleep signs for babies.

7) Cluster feeding hell
Your nipples are sore from your little one constantly wanting to eat for short bouts of time and every time your baby eats she falls asleep! Sleep and feedings are intimately related in infancy however when feeding your infant try to tickle your babies feet, shake their legs, and talk to your baby and try to keep them awake during feedings for a full belly and hopefully longer nap!

8) Earlier transition to crib

Mason started sleeping in his crib around 1.5 months old. He was outgrowing his bedside bassinet but it also helped with his sleeping to be in his own bed in his own room. For one, I wasn’t waking up every time he’d make the smallest peep and a lot of time if he did wake up he would soothe himself back to sleep by the time I got up to get him. I think sleeping separately helped him with self soothing and independence in his own bed. However, I know many parents choose to co-sleep and that is an individual family decision.

9) Utilize your partner!

Welcome to mommyhood Dairy Queen! Even if you are breastfeeding take help if your partner or family and take a night off. Make bottles ahead of time or pump if you need to and take a break. Sometimes you do everything right and you baby will still wake up screaming and you’re going to need a break Momma.

Good Luck all you exhausted mommas and papas out there! Keep your hopes up because one night your little one WILL fall asleep and sleep through the night. Mason one night when he was around 3.5-4 months just all of a sudden started sleeping through the night and has ever since. My husband and I like to think we had some part in that but I think Mason is the real mastermind behind all of it.


Pre-baby vs Post-baby Life…Sh*t just got real


Pre-baby Hair: I have my highlight and color appointment booked 6 months in advance. Nothing gets between me and this perfectly coifed mane

Post-baby Hair: No that’s not mousse that’s spit-up….from yesterday

Pre-baby bathing: I think I’m going to take a bath and read a book while sipping some wine
Post-baby bathing: Includes either showering with the monitor next to the shower or with said baby in bassinet outside of shower. Peek-a-boo with the shower curtain is a must. Damn it I forgot to shave an entire leg.

Pre-baby Saturday Nights: My heels and I are getting drinks at last call while contemplating what’s next on agenda!
Post-baby Saturday night: My slippers and I are up making a bottle. What’s next on the agenda? A 3am Feeding…..

Pre-baby Drinking: Shots!Shots!Shots!
Post-baby Drinking: The only thing I’m binging on is Netflix marathons. How many episodes of House of Cards can I watch before the baby wakes up again?

Pre-baby accessorizing: My whole outfit is perfectly accessorized from my Jack Rogers to my Lilly croakies
Post-baby accessorizing: What can I wear with my Baby Bjorn without dying from a heat stroke

Pre-baby working out: I have to train every day for that half marathon this fall!
Post-baby working out: I’ve been up since 3am when this kid goes down for a nap I’m running straight to bed

Pre-baby TV line-up: I’m up on the latest world news and have Orange is the New black and True Blood recording as we speak
Post-baby TV line-up: I can’t get that damn “Hot Diggity Dog” song out of my head from Mickey Mouse club house marathon this morning

Pre-baby restaurant problems: You get upset when a crying baby is interrupting happy hour before your enjoy your dinner
Post-baby restaurant problems: You can’t believe it when the restaurant you’re at does not have car seat slings

Pre-baby Parties: Cocktail parties in that little black dress you bought yesterday. All that running is paying off!
Post-baby Parties: You’re invited to every kid’s birthday party from here to kingdom come. It’s funny when someone announces they smell poop and every mother at the party grabs their child for the “sniff and peek test”

Pre-baby Pinterest pins: You pin everything you can find on beauty, hair, workouts and cute appetizers for your next cocktail party!
Post-baby Pinterest pins: Search all of Pinterest for any information on how to get your kid to sleep through the night….and really we wont limit it to Pinterest or blogs. You’ve already researched the internet in entirety.

Pre-baby Life: Perfection is key from your west elm apartment to your perfectly manicured nails
Post-baby Life: You realize there isn’t enough time in the day to do everything. So you can’t sweat the small stuff because there is literally not enough time in the day to worry about everything. And though there are a lot of stressors that come with family life there are also a lot more sweet moments. Enjoy each and every day because they grow up so fast!


My dirty little secret

imageOnce my husband had returned from deployment we were not “not trying” to get pregnant. We were both in our late twenties and had been married for three years and most of our friends were either pregnant or trying to get pregnant. Just a few weeks after zach’s return from Afghanistan we found out we were pregnant. I was elated at first.

But here is my secret…after the novelty of pregnancy wore off I had some major reservations and apprehension about having a baby. What the hell did we know about babies? Not a damn thing. I never even babysat! Zach had just returned from a 9 month deployment and we were still trying to get aquainted after a long, hard deployment. The extent of my baby knowledge stemmed from what I learned in physcial therapy school. So I could tell you by what month does baby walk, crawl, roll and all the gross motor milestones but ask me to change a diaper or make a bottle?! Everyone kept telling me, “your mommy instinct will just kick in”. But what if it didn’t?!

You do not need to hang out with me long to know that I am as laid back as it comes. This laid back “type B” personality is a blessing and a curse. Not much ruffles my feathers but my laid back personality usually results in procrastination and passiveness. I had enough difficulty keeping up with my own appointments and responsibilities, how was I supposed to be a primary caregiver to something so fragile and helpless.

Another apprehension was losing control of my body and body image. I had worked three long years to lose over 50 pounds. I was finally at a place were I felt pretty again. I knew that stretch marks, excess weight, and hormonal changes were a likely possibility in my near future. And as vain as it sounds it was truth.

This was my secret. Behind the smiles and words of excitement I was utterly terrified. No one wanted to hear that. If I would bring up any apprehension most people would either ignore or dismiss my reservations. Was I ready to give up most of my social life? Was I ready for sleepless nights? And what about my career and work life? Would the stress of a baby affect my marriage?

So speed up the clock and Mason is here. I am still utterly terrified but there is something different as well. I have never felt so much love in my life. I would look at Mason and I could feel my heart swell. I have never felt such a pull to protect and love something so much in my life. I found myself  watching him sleep in utter disblief that he is mine and how how perfect he is. I was so completely exhausted from labor but I did not want to miss one sweet breath from my little one. And the strange thing I feel like I’ve been waiting for him my whole life. Like fate had been preparing me for the moment of becoming his mom. All the pieces fell into place just like everyone had said they would. I still didn’t know how to change a diaper or how to breastfeed or make a bottle but as a family we would figure it out. Mason would look at me with his big brown eyes and know that I would love him forever and we’d be okay.

Life is different know. My bedtime is usually closer to 8:30pm rather than 1:30am. I find more enjoyment buying baby clothes than buying dresses, shoes, and purses for myself. My saturday nights consist of Mason’s bath at 5 followed by bedtime stories, kisses goodnight, and watching some red box movie with Zach while I sip on some wine before I pass out. My priorities have changed and where I used to be #1 someone more special and deserving has taken my place. Things have not changed in that fact as I’m still learning as I go but I’m not scared anymore. I know that God has blessed me with privelage of being Mason’s mom. I might not know it all but I know what matters most and he calls me mom.



If I were stranded on a deserted island with my baby and I could only bring 10 items they would be…..


1) Rocker and ottoman
My husband and I initially said that we were not going to spend the extra money on a glider. I mean would it really make a difference? Yes…it makes a huge difference at 3 o’clock in the morning when your little one is screaming for apparently no reason and your nerves are about as fried as Colonel Sanders Friday night fried chicken bucket. We decided to splurge and get a matching ottoman as well and I’d say its well worth the dough people. There is just something soothing to that gentle rocking motion and babies dig it

2) Gripe water
We didn’t come across this miracle liquid until Mason was about 3 months old. Gripe water is natural liquid mixture of ginger root and fennel root extract. You can add it to formula or breast milk and it is supposed to help with colic, gas, and hiccups. It comes with its own little syringe and doses are anywhere from 3-5 mL depending on your baby’s size. We add to it our little boy’s night bottle and when he is cranky and it seems to help when he’s a grump. There might be some sort of placebo affect but if it works, it works.

3) Baby Borjn
Strap him in and let’s go. Grocery shopping by yourself with a car seat and all your other baby paraphernalia is a tricky task. Once you have baby, car seat, diaper bag, and purse in cart you shortly run out of room for any groceries. I used to put Mason’s car seat on the top rack of the cart but a fireman stopped me and told me that doing so can damage the locking mechanism for attachment to the base. The next time, I brought my baby carrier and it was a breeze shopping compared to luging that damn car seat everywhere. Also, Mason seems to like being able to be close to me and looking at all the commotion of the grocery store.

4) Motorized Swing
We borrowed a swing from a friend because we had gotten a hand-me-down swing that broke shortly after Mason was born. We again doubted the usefulness of such a product. Boy were we wrong. Mason L-O-V-E-D his swing. If he was cranky a few swings back and forth and this kid was in heaven. One night the batteries died to the swing and Mason was being especially indignant. My husband sat for three hours pushing it with his foot. Oh the things you will do to pacify a crying baby…

5) Soothie pacifiers
Mason would not take to any pacifiers other than the Soothie brand pacifier. Babies find that sucking is soothing and pacifiers have been found to reduce the risk of SIDS. Mason found it especially difficult to self soothe on his own especially when he was a newborn. We do not use it as a sleep aid but on those occasions that he can not calm himself it really does help. The most difficult part of pacifiers is remembering where you put it down last. Pacifiers are always easily accessible and present until that moment your child is about to break the sound barrier with deafening screams. On a side note, our lab, Bailey, is also a big fan of chewing on Mason’s pacifiers as well.

6) Sound Machine
I’m sleepy just thinking about the gentle swooshing of Mason’s sounds machine. Mason is a big fan of the white noise and tends to get close to his sound machine as the night goes on. We do keep the volume pretty low because we read an article saying that sound machine may have contributed to hearing issues in infants. Take home message: Don’t blare your sound machine like your front row at a Bon Jovi concert

7) Rock ‘n’ Play Bassinet
Mason slept in this bassinet next to our bed for about 6 weeks. It was nice when he was a newborn because the head was elevated for reflux issues. Mason liked the snugness of it and I liked that it was portable and that it rocked. Mason would often times fall sleep in it and I would drag it throughout the house to wherever I would pass out. If he woke up I would through an arm over the side of our bed and rock and pat him back to sleep. Also, being a new mom I was very nervous about my little one sleeping in that big ol’ crib by himself. At about 6 weeks he was too long for the bassinet and we switched him to the crib with no problem.

8) Those damn snaps
If I could do it all over again I would specifically ask for zip up only PJs for Mason. I can not tell you how difficulty it is to correctly snap up Pjs in the middle of the night, in the dark, on a squirming baby when you are half asleep. Next baby (dare I say the words) zip up only people.

9) Swaddle Me swaddlers
Mason had these demonic moments every now and then where his face would turn completely red and he would be so angry he let out the dreaded “silent cry”. If any of you know about this cry it is the precursor to something much much worse. At this point for one reason or another, Mason would be almost inconsolable usually due to gas the poor baby (this was prior to the gripe water discovery). It is difficult to get a swaddle blanket around a child who is in the throws of anger. These swaddlers are wonderful. You put their feet in and basically strap them in and they are snug as a bug and you can pat and shoosh and rock until all is at peace with the world. My one contingency is to stop use when they can roll because since they can not move their arms and if they roll on their face they can suffocate. Also, (now this is the physical therapist coming out in me) do not keep your baby in it all times because I would think that it would keep them from discovering and performing those gross motor movements they need to learn to reach and kick and all that fun stuff. Okay, exiting soap box….now….

10) Refreshments please?
Coffee…..Dear baby Jesus thank you for this wonder drink that keeps me from turning into a zombie from night of the living dead after being up all night nursing this child every 2 hours. I don’t understand it when people tell me that they don’t drink coffee. That’s like me saying I don’t breath air. It’s a necessity for me and this exhausted momma needs her bean juice.
And then of course by the end of the week Momma needs her bottle too. After Mason is down for the night I grab a glass, uncork that bottle, and enjoy a glass of vino(or two) before bed.



imageYou’ve been waiting for this moment for nine months! You are so excited to hold and kiss your sweet little cherub. You envision the picture perfect moment of snuggling with your little one and being engulfed by the serenity of the little miracle you just created. Then reality sets in and you realize that all your mommy friends forgot to tell you that postpartum life is all but glamorous.

1) You never thought you’d wear mesh panties—and love it
Thats right. Mesh panties. After you deliver your body will begin the process of pushing out all the excess blood and tissue your body needed to nourish your little one during pregnancy. The flow is HEAVY at first and blood clots may also be present. Those sexy mesh panties work perfectly with a large maxi pad since you will not be able to use a tampon. Since your belly will still be swollen and maybe sore, the elasticity of the mesh panties is not only comfortable but they are disposable! My nurse told me that clots up to the size of credit card are normal. This was a bit shocking when she told me this to say this least. To top it all off, you may also experience abdominal cramping as your uterus begins it journey from the size of whatever fruit What to Expect told you down to about the size of your fist. I especially noticed sharp cramping when I was breastfeeding due to those good ol’ hormones telling your uterus to shape up.

2) Am I breastfeeding a vampire?
I’m not sure I would have made it through without Lanolin and soothie pads. Lanolin is a natural protectant that you can apply to your poor painful cracked nipples to help with healing after your little one has veraciously attacked your boobs like a hyena. I would highly recommend looking over a breastfeeding book before your little one comes and during as needed. I read that painful nursing is usually due to a poor latch. You can detach your little one from your nipple by slipping a finger in his mouth and gently slide finger out to the corner of their mouth to break his seal. Those soothie pads are wonderful with a capital W. However they are pricey and are only good for 72 hours. Also, my lab Bailey really liked to eat those expensive buggers. Don’t worry we found them later in the backyard. Don’t worry…no animals were harmed during the breastfeeding process.
3) Coochie Coolers!
Amen to Tucks pads or coochie coolers! I delivered my little one via C-section however I pushed for several hours up until the point we found that it was fruitless. Tuck’s pads are given to you by the hospital and are basically maxi pads that have cooling beads in them. They are the next best thing to sticking your hind end into a freezer. I have seen pins on Pinterest of homemade coolers but have not heard many reviews.

4) Nap time nightmares
I never babysat. I really never had to care for young children until Mason! I was under the impression that babies just go to sleep when they are tired. Well…some babies might do that but my little stink had other plans. Some babies need to be put down for naps! Mason continues to this day to fight naps however he is a much happier baby when he gets those naps in. Late to bed does not necessarily mean late to rise. An overly tired baby is a TERROR. We found that we would watch him like a hawk and look for tired signs such as yawns, rubbing eyes, moving legs and arms with less coordination/spastic, and he likes to rub his head on our chest.

5) Hungry Hungry Hippo
When I was breastfeeding, I could not eat enough! Don’t be surprised if you have an increased appetite when you are breastfeeding. I have read that you burn about 20 calories per ounce of breast milk you express! If your little one eats 3 oz every 2-3 hours you have already burned at least 720 calories by just being an awesome mommy!

6) Home cooked Delivered meals are a godsend
We were so thankful for the outpouring of love and gifts from all of our friends and family showed us especially home cooked delivered meals. I am pretty sure that my husband would have starved if we didn’t have some of those delicious meals. Those first couple of weeks I barely had enough energy to shower. I literally was in a nursing bra and robe for weeks. Cooking dinner those first couple of weeks was the last thing on my mind. I think next go round I am going to get my pregnant butt in gear and make frozen meals ahead of time so I don’t have to worry about my husband starving to death.

7) Why do I still look pregnant
After delivery you lose around 10-15 pounds right off the bat! Hell yea! But wait a darn minute what is this sad squishy pouch where my stomach used to be?! *sigh* Yes, you will sadly still look pregnant after birth of your little one. Don’t worry those first 6 weeks you wont really feel like working out anyways and if you do…I hate you.

8) That first BM is scary
Yes i’m talking poop here. After hours of pushing you are not sure what the hell is going on down there. Just make sure that you are taking stool softeners as directed by physician especially if you are still taking prenatal vitamins. You’ll get through it just breathe. I think we have covered that topic. Check.

9) You wont get much sleep at the hospital
At our hospital all babies roomed in with the new parents. There was always an array of doctors, nurses, aides, housekeepers, lactation specialists, and even a photographer?! coming in and out all day and night. Every change of shift 7-3, 3-7, 7-11 expect someone to come in and check on you and baby. We were pleased with all the attention but definitely were ready to go home to some “relative” peace and quiet after discharge with our baby boy.

10) Life after baby
Getting out the door to just go to the grocery is a major event. When did the baby eat last? When was his last nap? Does he need to be changed first? Where’s the damn binkie? Have the dogs eaten today? Simple errands now require the planning of a four star general. Don’t forget to continue to date your spouse and find some time to have fun and relax. And always remember that bottles just aren’t for babies. Pour yourself a glass of wine and relax mom you deserve it…